Monday, May 8, 2017

This Is It Moment

         Well, here I am again. I am back. Back again. I have been crazy busy, and I feel like I can never sit down to just blog. I will be doing something and say this would be a blog worthy moment, but then I forget what I was even doing, and then not even blog about it. I have had this title saved has a draft for a few weeks trying to get the whole blog into words. It has been something that I have heard a lot lately. I started thinking about what my "this is it" moment. I remember playing with my daughter and I remember that I was just walking around the living room with her, and I had a hard time catching my breath. I started thinking that, she is going to be getting more mobile and wanting to get out and play more, and how am I suppose to do this if  I can't even walk her around the house.

      I realized that I needed to change my lifestyle, and I have talked about how I wanted to be here for my daughter, and how things needed to change. I was never really concerned for myself, like I knew that I needed to take care of myself for my daughter, but I never thought to take care of myself for ME. It is really hard to focus on that when your mind is telling you that you want all these foods that you really shouldn't be eating. I know it is going to be hard, but no one said it was going to be easy!

     For the last couple of days I have been super sick and have lost like 6 pounds in 3 days. Not healthy but it is a good start. I am wanting this more than anything to just keep going and do better each day. I am starting with small attainable goals and then moving forward. I have so many plans but when you don't see the scale moving fast enough, you really start asking yourself if you will ever get to where you are wanting to go, or think that it could be a couple of years before you see the finished product. I have to learn that it is the small steps that get you to the bigger goals. So, I am going to make a list of small goals I want to accomplish.

1. Ride my bike to the grocery store when needing small items for meals for 1 week

2. Eat clean whole food for 1 week

3. Drink More Water

4. Lose 7 pounds in 2 weeks

     This is just a start. I will add come up with more. If you have any suggestions I would like to hear them. I can use all the help I can! Until than, let me leave you all with my quote of the day....

Monday, February 20, 2017

Meal Planning and Other Stuff

              Losing all motivation. How come sometimes you can feel completely motivated to do something, but then just not do it? I talked about this in my last blog that I get motivated to do something but at the same time I have not motivation to start. I really started thinking about it, and I think if you don't know the first step, it becomes frustrating.  I hate feeling like I have no idea what to do. I have done this before, I have lost weight many times. I have gained weight many times, it is easy to do? I can't tell you how to get fit, or how to lose weight, but I can tell you how to gain weight. I see a huge problem with that. I'm sure that  I am not the only one that struggles with this, everyone knows what causes weight gain, and we all have the will power to do so. No one thinks twice about what they are eating when they are not concentrating on "healthy" eating. If I am not carefully I can catch myself with a bag of chips and anything else that  I shouldn't be eating.  I never expected it to be easy I just wish that I could have a more positive experience, and I know that  I will get there, but I just want to stay honest and not make it seem like losing weight is the easiest thing in the world, and that it takes little to no effort to do so. It takes a lot of motivation and even more determination.

              I know that for me to get started I need to meal plan. I find it difficult to meal plan, because there has to be more than just chicken, rice, and veggies. I seriously struggle with finding "healthy" meals to prep. I have been watching a lot of videos on YouTube, that has helped a lot.
I went and bought 5lbs of rice and a bag of chicken and cooked a few days worth of lunch. Like I said, I need to find more than just chicken and rice. I am going to study a lot more.

            Bottom line is that I am willing to do whatever it is to get myself in better shape. Not only for myself but for my daughters. I don't want to be the dad that has to sit down all the time because I can't catch my breath. I am almost there now. I just have to do better, and make small changes, that way I can see better results.  I am glad that spring is coming, because I am looking forward to bike riding, walking outside, and finding new trails to hike. I just need to by a jogging stroller and one of the carts to pull behind my bike.

            I hope to be able to blog more. I just am getting use to coming up with topics.
I think that I am definitely going to start doing recipe blogs, that would be fun.
Anyways, here is your daily dose of motivation and don't forget that anyone can go from Fluff to Buff!

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Lack of Motivation

     Every night I set my alarm for 30 minutes earlier, so that  I can get up and "workout". Of course by the time the alarm goes off I just think, do I really want to get up right now, or do I want to stay in bed and sleep for an extra 30 minutes. I always choose to sleep in. I just do not have the drive to get up and exercise. I feel the lack of motivation, even though I have every intention to get up.  Does anyone have tips that might help with that? Maybe vitamins, or maybe drinking a pre-workout first thing in the morning and see if it will give me the energy? Crazy thing is back when I was working out regularly, I could get up at 4am and go to the gym without any hesitation, good luck if  I do that now!
    At least this morning when I woke up I was able to pack my snacks and my lunch so I could avoid the vending machine of death!  I was eating out of it everyday, and we all know that they never stalk it with anything healthy. I can eat 5 bags of the sausage gravy potato chips! I am not going to lie, I cam awful close to it, but I stopped at 3 bags! It has been 3 days I believe since I have touched the vending machine. My plan is to save my money for good healthy food, like fresh fruits!
   Today I woke up and packed my lunch and snacks as following:

Breakfast: Shake
Snack: package of Hot Buffalo Tuna (plain) with Halos and a Fiber One Bar (sounds like a lot but this was spread out over a couple hours)
Lunch:  Ground Beef with homemade Taco Seasoning over Lettuce w/ Sour Cream and Salsa and Cottage Cheese
Snack: Fiber One Bar with some Halos.

   I haven't decided what I am going to do for dinner today, but I think after dinner I am going to go for a walk at the local mall, that way I at lease get some exercise that way too!
   Also, I think that  I am finally ready to post pictures!

Motivational quote: "Don't stop when you're tired. STOP when you are DONE." -unknown

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

At It Again!!

          Here I am again. I has been a few months since I have posted on here. A lot has been going on and it has kept me from sitting down for long periods of time to blog about my day. I think that I have finally got in the grove of things (I usually say this and then something new happens to just throw me me off). As far as the changes in my life, I started a new job, I have gained most of the weight I lost back, and I would like to proudly say that we are expecting our second child, in just 4 short months. 
I already have 7 month, so with them being so close together "YAY!".  I am excited but it has been a little bit of a struggle getting use to.  We are having another girl, and so it is really nice already having everything that we need, except for needing another car seat and a double stroller/double jogging stroller.  Also, like I mentioned  I started a new job. I absolutely love it. It has been the best job I have had by far. I can't deal with a stressful job. It definitely does not help with my health! 

         Which is the next thing that I wanted to talk about, my health. I have been struggling to get on track with my eating. I can do it for a couple of weeks and then just relapse, and the next thing I know I have gained back most of the weight, if not more than I just worked so hard to lose. Then I just get super depressed and then I binge eat. It is like a snowball affect for me. One thing after another. It's getting pretty old.
Having gained back to almost 300 lbs it has been really depressing for me. I think about all these ways I can get this weight off but actually doing it stresses me out like no one's business. While I am at work I can do just fine, I normally take a package of tuna and some fruit and I do just fine, but as soon as I get home, I start eating like crazy. I usually have pretty healthy stuff at home but it never sounds good so I always just run to the closest fast food. I know that I can't be doing this but no matter what I do I can't stop myself.

     So far today I have done relatively good. I am going to make a better choice for dinner tonight, and actually eating at home

So, here begins a new journey to a healthier and better me! Also, if anyone has a recipe for infused water please let me know. I want to start taking that to work!

As always I end with a little motivation:  "Change happens when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change"-Shaycarl