Thursday, August 18, 2016

Back Again. . .

                     Now, when I say back again, I don't mean that I am starting all over, but just back to blogging. I have be doing really good. I still haven't had any soda or energy drinks. I started drinking my coffee black ( still not use to it but I am getting there.) I have ate out twice in the month and a half that I have been doing this, but both times I ordered only what I knew I could have. After feeling the way that I did when I ate the ice cream I decided that I couldn't do that again. I hated that feeling! So, I have been eating super clean, trying to drink a lot more water.

                     The only thing that I can't figure out, is that I have been doing so good, that after losing 17 pounds, the weight just stopped coming off, and even started to creep back up. Can someone please explain this to me? Another thing that I am trying to figure out is that how much protein I should be eating, and how many calories? I am just so confused on how much I should be eating to continue to lose weight. I feel like that eating right, is the hardest part. I don't know what to eat, how much to eat, when I should be eating. Like breakfast, how many times do I have to eat oatmeal? What Can I switch it up with? How often should I be exercising? What kind of exercises can I do without a gym membership? It is so over whelming that I get stressed out. When I get stressed, I get depressed and then I just want to give up. That is what would happen to me before, I would give up, and I would just continue to eat whatever I wanted. I am glad that I haven't given up yet. There has been days where I just was like, I am done. I can't take the stress anymore, but then I would tell myself that I just have to get through this feeling and remember why I am doing it. I agree 100% that motivation is what gets you started but determination is what keeps you going. I want this so bad, that I can taste it, and it tastes so sweet (not sweet as in cake or cookies sweet).

            I really missed blogging, I have thought about it every night, but when I go to start blogging, something comes up, and with the shift change at work, it has thrown me off like crazy, but like I said I am back and ready to share my emotions with anyone who is willing to read!

Final note before I leave you, PLEASE Remember to never give up, and that one moment of weakness is not worth ruining everything you have accomplished so far. We are a work in progress!

Saturday, August 6, 2016

The Struggles Are Real. . .

           Well, it has been awhile since I have been on here to blog. I have missed it a lot! It has been a whole week! I want to start off by saying that I am down, 12 pounds, from where I started. It may not seem like a lot but 12 pounds in 3 weeks is not bad. I am trying really hard to stay on track. Which is what I really want to talk about here. For the last 3 weeks I have been doing really good. I haven't had any treats, like candy, soda, or my biggest weakness, MONSTER ENERGY. Which, I am really proud of myself for that. Here is where the struggle gets real. Last night, (8/5/2016) I went to see Suicide Squad. I told myself that I was not going to indulge in popcorn or candy. Well, when I got there and it was in front of me, I could help but eat it, it being both popcorn and candy. The fun does not stop there though. We went to T.G.I Friday, and I had 10 traditional wings. I felt completely like I let me self down. I told myself that I would do better tomorrow. So, tomorrow comes around, and we have a company picnic to attend. Well, I did really good with the food, only having pulled pork with honey mustard,and fruit. Well, then they bring out the ice cream truck, and of course I told my self that I was going to get something that I can have. So, they had these frozen Ice with a small amount of ice cream, so I decided to have that. I only had a single serving of the soft serve ice cream, so I figured that it was not to bad, but still not great. After, leaving I once again felt let down, and frustrated.

          Now, that I know that I feel that way after eating what I am not supposed to, it will give me that strength to keep myself from making those bad decisions. I truly still want this healthier life style, and I think that it really shows, because before, I would have just said SCREW IT all. I am more determined than ever to get to where I want to be!

up a few days. On, Thursday we walked to the High School, and we were going to walk the track. I decided that I wanted to see how far I could run without stopping. I made it 1/4th of a mile. I haven't ran in almost 3 years, it was really hard but I did it. I felt great! After that I decided to run bleachers. I did 4 sets (up and down is one set). It is a start, and I am going to get back to being able to do bleachers and then run a mile.

     Please remember that, because times get hard and you slip up, doesn't mean that you give up, it means that you have to go at it the next day and remember why you are doing it. That's how I am going to go from Fluff To Buff.